December 2011
1 post
Best Of 2011
The end of the year has come again & with that brings another installment of my ‘Best Of’ lists. Below I’ve posted a list of my 50 favorite albums of the year, 10 favorite singles of the year, & my 30 favorite songs of the year (with my favorite lyric from each of the 30 songs as well). As always, this is my personal opinion. My list reflects how much I personally enjoyed...
July 2011
1 post
Watch“Bitches N Niggaz” Funniest song I’ve heard in awhile. LMAO!
December 2010
2 posts
Best Of 2010
Best Sets Of 2010:
10.Deas Vail at Off Broadway on September 5th
9.The Junior Varsity at Dublin Pub on July 30th
8.Motion City Soundtrack at The Pageant on October 26th
7.Sleeping At Last at The Luminary Center For The Arts on April 14th
6.Park at The Hilton on November 6th
5.Kevin Devine at The Firebird on April 9th
4.Portugal. The Man at The Gargoyle on February 27th
3.Fun. at...
I'm the Grinch, that stole Christmas.
Everyone I know has been all giddy and excited for Christmas recently, let’s just say that I’m less than enthused. Christmas to me is just another holiday for people to get greedy and self absorbed. Maybe I hate Christmas because I have nothing to look forward to. My mom’s birthday was on Christmas, so since she died 9 years ago, Christmas is spent with me sunk into myself...
October 2010
3 posts
Dear Assholes,
musicspeaksforitself:
I’ve decided that you guys are no longer going to be a part of my life. I will occasionally encounter your kind here and there, but you will never be a part of my life anymore. It’s best to part ways because to be quite frank, I can’t deal with any of your negative bullshit, ignorant statements, and foolish opinions. So if you can so kindly fuck off, that would be dandy.
...
July 2010
2 posts
"I'll wait 'til my heart mends, so I can finally...
Everyone & their grandma has been tired of hearing me talk about Morgan the past four or so months. Well, most of you will get your wish (for the time being at least). As of two days ago, Morgan & I aren’t talking to each other anymore. She said all of her peace and says that she has to be alone, because she doesn’t want to have another destructive relationship like her last...
Worth Fighting For
I don’t know what to do anymore. I thought things had been going better with Morgan and I, then randomly she’s M.I.A. for 4 days (turns out it’s because her exes are psycho) and now it’s in a weird situation again. I went to Warped Tour today which was all well and fine. When I got home, I realized that Morgan’s comments to me weren’t on my page anymore. I...
June 2010
1 post
Confused
I hate feeling like I’m making constant mistakes over & over again. A few weeks ago, I felt on top of the world & it felt like she enjoyed talking to me and like she really liked me. She even asked me to text her more, she’d always text me telling me that she missed me and I was beyond smitten. Then I had to be a dumbass and tell her that I liked her. You’d think that...
May 2010
1 post
What's the point?
If you feel dead inside, then what makes you any different than someone who’s actually dead? It’s a constant internal struggle for me to be able to make it through everyday. I hate having a big heart, I’ve always kept my heart open & tried to listen to people when they needed an ear, or helped people if they needed a favor. I considered myself a good person. The older I get,...
March 2010
2 posts
"I Could Use A Friend To Say They Love Me"
I wish I could find a way to cope with how I feel…I hate this alexithymic feeling. I guess since my childhood was rushed, my brain development was rushed too. I’ve constantly felt like I’m twenty years older than I actually am…since I was like 12 years old. When you’re thrown into the real world, you can either drown or learn to swim. I chose doggy paddling....
"Maybe Love's Best Left To Who Care's Less"
Thought an obligatory lyric by The Graduate would sum up this post. Well it’s been awhile tumblr. I’m still as lost & confused as I was the last time I wrote on here. Maybe even more so. Rumors about what women really look for in guys have been greatly exaggerated. Great personality? False. Someone who’s funny? Nada. Sincerity? Yeah right. Someone who will treat them right?...
January 2010
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New Year's Eve
So, earlier in the day I was bored and it seemed as if nothing was transpiring for plans for tonight. After constant debating with myself, I chose to drive back to Edwardsville/Glen Carbon for New Year’s Eve. I knew that there would be a dry party at Frank’s house in Granite City, which sounded like more of my cup of tea anyways, since I don’t drink and I wanted to be around...
December 2009
2 posts
Best Of 2009
Top 10 CDs Of 2009:
10.This Providence - “Who Are You Now?”
9.Set Your Goals - “This Will Be The Death Of Us”
8.Fun. - “Aim And Ignite”
7.The Dangerous Summer - “Reach For The Sun”
6.Manchester Orchestra - “Mean Everything To Nothing”
5.Thrice - “Beggars”
4.As Tall As Lions - “You Can’t Take It With...
I Wish I Was Naive
So tumblr, I’ve been neglecting you, but recently there’s been a lot going on. Well I finished up my semester back home at LLCC and have re-enrolled back at SIUE for the fall semester. I’ve also recently moved into a house down in Glen Carbon,IL with a few people (Brandon, Bree, Joe, and soon to be Adam). We’re getting along ok I guess. What I’m writing about though...
August 2009
1 post
"We can drive far away, forget our way back, we...
The summer has come to an end and that’s definitely a bitter feeling. All of my friends are going back to school, while I’ve decided to stay in Springfield and take classes at LLCC this semester due to money issues. I think I’m going crazy. I’ve been trying to find a job for the past 4 months, but have had no luck and my money that I’ve had in savings is dwindled down...
June 2009
2 posts
Summer: Part 2
So I’ve been home for summer for about 38 days and I must say so far summer has been less than fun. This is the first break since I started college, where I’ve been absolutely bored outta my mind almost the entire time. On top of that it seems like my whole world has been turned upside down. Of the group of people I hung out with most of last summer, I’ve only hung out with 3 of...
Become What You Hate
Is Judgement Day tomorrow? If it is, then I completely missed the memo. It seems like everything (mainly everyone) around me is falling apart. I’m at the point right now where I give up. I thought for the longest time that most of my closeknit friends (and family members) were freethinkers and stayed true to themselves (and would stay true to themselves). It feels as if I fell asleep one...
May 2009
3 posts
"You Just Tell Me My Heart's In The Right Place;...
Everyday is a constant struggle for me. I feel as if who I am is and never was (and never will be) enough, for anyone. I live day by day, seeing more and more people that I care about making stupid decisions, but all I can do is sit back and watch. The world’s fucked. I stand by who I am as a person, but it gets harder everyday. Everyone in this world (or at least the continental USA) is a...
"Love is Watching Someone Die"
Ben Gibbard’s lyrics always seem to put everything in perspective and yet turn the world upside down and inspect every little thing all at once. The type of voice that guides lyrics to break & mend someone’s heart at the same time. It’s music in the most perfect, blissful state.
Summer: Part 1
So my summer started a couple weeks ago, so I thought I would update you all on what I’ve been up to. For the most part I’ve just been sleeping, eating, listening to music and hanging out with friends. I decided to buy a Nintendo 64 a few days ago, because I had an urge to play Mario 64, because it’s basically the best video game ever. I still haven’t decided if I’m...
April 2009
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Close Your Eyes & Just Settle
I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of being hurt. I’m tired of not being loved. I’m tired of not being good enough. We all just wait until our hearts can’t take anymore and then we settle for anyone that will show us the tiniest bit of affection and then we settle and call it love. I’m close to just settling.
“There’s a fight between my heart...
March 2009
3 posts
“Sometimes I feel like I am dying down here, I feel a raging storm inside of my...”
– Saves The Day - “Don’t Know Why”
All My Accomplishments Are Joined With Asterisks,...
Do you ever get to a point in your life where you just sort of say “Fuck It!”, because nothing that you do seems good enough? This is the feeling I wake up to, go to sleep to, and generally live day to day by. I disappoint myself regularly and I tend to beat myself over it. If I fail a test or at least do poorly on it (which has been a very common occurrence as of late), I get really...
"He Died Because He Was Poor" →
A poor man that kept to himself and never meant to cause anyone any harm can’t take the cruelty and unfairness of the world anymore, so he contemplates his existence.
February 2009
1 post
Next Big Things of 2009
People have different opinions on what they classify as big. With this list of bands, I see them on the edge of being mainstream, but not to that point yet, while some look at this list and see bands that are established in the independent music scene, so they immediately write off the validity of my list. This is just a list of 25 bands that I think should be big and that I hope by the end of...
January 2009
4 posts
“Silve Wings” by Thrice
Anyone that...
“I wish we’d always wake up new, refreshed & born again, with nothing...”
– The Format-“Sore Thumb”
Impact (A Poem)
Do you ever walk through some place for example a store in a small town or the crowded streets of Chicago and look at people’s faces and wonder who each individual one of them impacts for better or for worse? A mother A son A tragic homicide That started with his gun A cold suburban road A deserted cemetary A cluttered holiday parking lot A lonely kid’s bedroom A mother A son A...
Best CDs of 2008
Albums of the Year 10.Paper Rival-“Dialog” 9.Jack’s Mannequin-“The Glass Passenger” 8.Bayside-“Shudder” 7.Less Than Jake-“GNV FLA” 6.City And Colour-“Bring Me Your Love” 5.Good Old War-“Only Way To Be Alone” 4.Punchline-“Just Say Yes” 3.The Classic Crime-“The Silver Cord” 2.Forgive...
December 2008
3 posts
Drugs or Me?
A question I receive often is: Why did you choose to become straight-edge? I grew up in Podunk Town,USA (AKA Jacksonville,IL). Everyone in this town is infatuated with being drunk, getting high, and anything else that will help numb their brain from the fact that they live in a shithole of a town. When I was in 8th grade I met someone that would change my life, I didn’t know it then, but...
