I hate feeling like I’m making constant mistakes over & over again. A few weeks ago, I felt on top of the world & it felt like she enjoyed talking to me and like she really liked me. She even asked me to text her more, she’d always text me telling me that she missed me and I was beyond smitten. Then I had to be a dumbass and tell her that I liked her. You’d think that it’d be the smart idea, but if it was the smart idea then I’d hate to know what the dumb idea was. Anyways nowadays it feels like all I do is annoy her. I really care for her more than you could even comprehend. I would do literally anything for her, yet nowadays it seems like all I do is bother her & that she doesn’t like talking to me and that she sees me as nothing. I want to wait for her, I truly do. She’s my dream woman, but if I keep myself out the re and am never given a chance then it will severely hurt me. She’s the most beautiful woman that I have ever met. Guys have hurt her in her past, but I’m not like them. I want to try and show her who I really am, but it seems as if she doesn’t even want me to get close to her. I’m trying to just be as supportive of her as I can be & just be as sincere as I possibly can and maybe someday she’ll realize that I’ve been here all along. :-/ I hate being in so much pain. When you care for someone deeply, you want to be with them. I’ve only got to see her one time in the past three weeks though and it’s killing me. I keep praying to God, hoping that he’ll give me answers of what to do and it seems to calm me down every once & awhile. I just hope that she can see through my eyes and see everything that I see in her.