Everyone & their grandma has been tired of hearing me talk about Morgan the past four or so months. Well, most of you will get your wish (for the time being at least). As of two days ago, Morgan & I aren’t talking to each other anymore. She said all of her peace and says that she has to be alone, because she doesn’t want to have another destructive relationship like her last two. Another situation where I’m taking the heat and consequences because of actions caused by lesser “men”. I know she’s scared of getting hurt again. I’m scared too. I know that she’s self conscious because her exes didn’t support her and made her feel worthless about herself. I’ve tried to tell her how beautiful and amazing she is at every opportunity that I had. I honestly want her to be happy and see herself the way that I see her. Anyways last night I come home and realize that she had deleted and blocked me on facebook. My guess is that it’s because she’s trying to make a decision and stand by it no matter how hard it is. Everytime that she would get close to me & open up, she’d pull back on the reigns and get farther away from me and that has kept going on for the past three to four months. Eventually she decided that she needs to figure herself out on her own and her life and goals and career and where she wants to be headed in the future. I know that I love her with all of my heart. Does this hurt me? More than anyone could ever know, but if I ever want to be with her, then I’ll have to let this happen. I have no choice. I want her to be happy, so I’m giving her the space that she’s desperately needed all along. She told me that her breaking my heart broke her heart. If that made any sense then I’d believe it. She also said that if she could open her heart up to me that she would, but that she can’t. I don’t know why. I know she’s been hurt, but she’s known me long enough to know that I’m sincere and that I want to enhance her life, not hinder it. Love is a tricky thing. You love someone with all of your heart, yet you feel worthless about yourself for doing so. Why did God make it where we could fall in love with people that couldn’t love us back or that we couldn’t be with? All I know is that I’ll keep praying about this until I get some answers, because I need some closure right now and I have very little.